Mark David ChapmanI believe in Holden Caulfield. And in the book, and what he was saying, what he was saying to a lost generation of phony people.
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Mark David Chapman[whispering into the phone]I am gonna kill John Lennon.
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Mark David Chapman[Ordering a prostitute]I'll tip her well if she doesn't talk.
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Mark David ChapmanEveryone needs something, to find something. Everyone is cracked and broken. You have to find something to fix you, to give you what you need, to take you away and make you whole.
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Mark David Chapman[Shaking five-year-old Sean Lennon's hand]I flew all the way across the ocean from Hawaii, and it is an honour to meet you Mr. Lennon.
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Mark David Chapman[to Cabbie]Take me somewhere nice. Not too expensive, just nice.
Mark David ChapmanGood morning, do you know if John Lennon is coming out today? I... I got his new album, and I was hoping to get his autograph.
Second DoormanI can't help you.
Mark David Chapman[after a pause] Look, I understand, I know how it is, but I've been waiting for two days already, and it's just... I really want to meet him.
Second DoormanThe thing is I'm not the regular doorman here, so I don't know much about John Lennon.
Mark David ChapmanI knew it. I knew it, I knew it was something like that. Hah!
[Two loud pops are heard and Yoko starts screaming]
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Mark David Chapman[narration]That's all I wanna tell you about. I could tell you about how they took me down to the police station, and paraded me in front of the media and all. And how they put me in this goddamn place, and how things got really crazy for a while, but I'm not interested in any of that stuff anymore. It's not important. They keep asking me if I really think I am the catcher in the rye. It's such a stupid question. It's dumb, I swear to God it is. I know no matter what anybody says, I have the strength and knowing the paragraphs and sentences of that book were flowing through my brain, and entering my blood... influencing my thoughts, my actions. My very soul was breathing between the pages of The Catcher in the Rye. I was there for three days, and it was a Monday pretty near Christmas in New York City. And now I'm here. Sitting right here. Talking to you.
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JudeWell I gotta go. I hope you get your record signed, and I hope you listen to it.
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Mark David ChapmanI could feel it in my bones, that I'd never see this hotel room again.
CabbieAlright buddy, so where do you want me to take you? For real.
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Mark David Chapman[narration]Now, I didn't know it at the time, but the whole goddamn place was full of perverts and morons. It depressed the hell out of me. It really did.
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Mark David Chapman[narration]No one in the world knew what was going on in that room. What was happening to me.
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Mark David Chapman[narration]I waited, and I waited, for what felt like forever. But nothing happened. No one came. I thought about waiting for that girl, the fan. But I knew she wouldn't come back. No one ever does anything they say they will. And it was so cold. It was scary. I felt like I was disappearing every time I crossed the street.
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JudeHey, you! We were going to go see a movie later. Hello? Do you want to come?
JudeWe were going to go see a movie later. Do you want to come?
Mark David Chapman[scoffs]Uh, no. No. I hate the movies. They're phony. So goddamn phony. I mean, look at the actors, they're always clutching their foreheads and breathing deep. It's like they know they're acting and they know how good they are, and goddamn it they're gonna show you. I can't stand it. It drives me insane. Drives me absolutely insane, if you wanna know the truth.
Mark David ChapmanI know, I can take you gals to dinner. I mean, if you want. You like Japanese food? I've been to Japan. I've been all over the world.
Mark David ChapmanI'm sorry I didn't wish you a happy party. I just wasn't thinking about things like that before I left.
GloriaIt's okay. I know. I know you. You're my husband.
Mark David Chapman[fighting tears]It's getting so late here. I just can't seem to get to sleep!
GloriaWell, I just got into bed and I'm reading my bible. Maybe you should try working on your problems one at a time. Maybe the first one should be getting back with Christ again. And after that you can just ask him for His help with the others.
Mark David ChapmanYou don't have to be nervous. I'm not a weirdo. I just, uh... I wanted to be in the company of a woman tonight. I think tomorrow will be a very rough day for me.
Mark David ChapmanSome things are hard to remember. I'm thinking now when the woman left, I just wanted to kill myself. I thought about just throwing myself out the goddamn window.
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JudeThe other night. You know, Jeri and I were waiting for you. And then, she wanted to go, but I wanted to stay. And then I wanted to go, and we were gonna go, and then as we were leaving a cab pulled up... and it was John! Just John. Anyway, he talked to us for a bit and Jeri bummed one of his cigarettes. It was great!
Mark David ChapmanHawaii changed my life. It really did. When I first got out there, I was... you know, I thought I was a dud. Hawaii saved my life. It saved my life! It did. It really, really, did.
JudeI'd really like to go there sometime. But I don't think...
Mark David Chapman[interrupts]No, no, no. Don't ever say that! Don't ever say anything like that.
Mark David ChapmanYou can do anything. If you set your mind to it, you can do anything! The human mind is an incredible thing. Once its mind is made up, it can do anything.
Mark David ChapmanVery good. It's like I told my mother before I left, I knew I was gonna do something big. I just didn't know if it was gonna be good or bad.
Mark David Chapman[chuckles]Oh, no. No, no, no. I'm not gonna do that. No.
PaulWell, do you know why they call this building the Dakota? Because it was first built in the 1800s. There was nothing up here. it was just farm, and they were like well, if you lives up here you might as well be living out in Dakota. I don't even think Dakota was South or North Dakota yet. It was just like, a territory. They also shot Rosemary's Baby here.
Mark David ChapmanHelter Skelter. John Lennon lives in a building where a film about Satan coming to Earth, where a director's wife and child were killed because of a song that John Lennon... oh my God. This is not a coincidence. Today's the day. Today is the day. No coincidence.
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Mark David Chapman[inner monologue]I can see it. He was sitting on the sofa, and knowing what almost happened. Knowing that you could have done it. Now, you do it! Do it, you liar.
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Mark David ChapmanYou had your album signed, just go. Get in the next taxi and just go, go, go, go, go!
Mark David ChapmanThat's not what we're here for! He signed your record, and he was nice. Put the date on it and everything. He was kind. But I wanna kill him! He's mine. I want him.
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Mark David ChapmanHelp me, devil. Give me the power. I have to do it. You have to do it, have to, have to, have to. I want to.
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Mark David ChapmanGod, no! No, no, no, no. You're nobody! You're nothing! He wasn't phony. Just get in the taxi and go home. You got your autograph. Go home and frame it. Put it on the wall, put it on the wall!
PaulHey, man! Forget it! It's just a question, man!
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Mark David Chapman[to Sean Lennon]I flew all the way across the ocean from Hawaii, and it's an honor to meet you, Mr. Lennon. You better take care of that runny nose. You wouldn't want to get sick and miss Christmas.